The Little Things

Living in the big city like KL seems to have everything that we need and it is so conveniently that everything that you need just come by so easily. This is why, sometimes little things that we experiences seems to be neglected. When we know we can get one thing so easily, we keen to forget that it is somehow important as well to make the part of our life so special and complete. How and what should we consider an event to be the little thing?

Job:
Working in In2, I started to get along well with each and everyone that I possible can. It is not to say that I need the network so as to sustain myself in the company but it is importance for me to know how the company can makes me feel comfortable to stay in. Each and everyone has their own personalities, hence forth, it is importance for me to know the little things of each and everyone to make the connection a stronger bonding. I am not a very particular person to judge to make friends. I accept everyone of who they are and what they wanted to be. After all, it is their free will to act upon their own decision to be who they really want to be. I just be myself and be down to earth to accept the personalities traits of each and everyone. I appreciate things and I believe each and everyone has their own uniqueness to make themselves of who they are.

Love:
Being with Mr.S is more than meets the eyes. He is unique and he is the one and only kind that I appreciate. He is not judgmental and he always makes me feel comfortable to be around. I know I am a big spender and I am a drama queen that likes to make everything to be the center of attention. But recently, I take things a little slow and I realized that the little things that we shared is so important. For example, the little things like sitting in a park drinking beer and sharing our thoughts, eating ice-cream that can be conveniently bought in 7-eleven, scrolling around the swimming pool area, kissing and hugging, sending sms to each other in the most unexpected time and the most predictable time. All these little things make me feels so satisfied in many ways that I possibly can explain. I know in a relationship there is no such things as smooth sailing all the way. There will be more that we need to overcome, but here I would like to say that I am willing to go through all these obstacle with you, my Mr.S. I know you are a very unique person, and please bear with me that I need sometimes to understand more about you and to adapt to you. You promise to be always there and I will always count on that to keep this relationship going as smooth as possible. The little things that we shared will always be the key to sustain our relationship to have a stronger bonding.

Life:
There are so many things that we need to go through in our life and all these things will eventually determined how our life will turn out to be. Even just a simple thing like eating an ice-cream can bring satisfaction to some degree. All I can advice here is to appreciate each and everything, either good or bad, because all these experiences will eventually be carried forward along your life and our life time span is really limited. Enjoy yourself in any possible way that you can think of and do not make everything in our life too seriously. Relax and enjoy what had been given to us.

A CD cover I did for Mr.S as a gifts for him to enjoy listening while on his way back.

I always think that they both look alike. Especially the chin part.

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Complete

At what point does a woman know that she is completely fulfilled in every term? How she know that the other person is the one that can makes you complete in everything? Frankly speaking, I'm no expert to define everything in every relationship should have or shouldn't have, yes or no, true or false. Everything I did was based on feeling and women intuition. But does feeling solely itself can sustain a relationship to be completed? I always have doubt on this particular statement. A relationship cannot just based on feeling itself, but also have to face the reality of the truth from the societies. Where does all true love that happen in fairy tales or a so called romanticism era had gone to? Where and when should we draw a line in between reality and fantasy?

Job:
Working in In2 for almost 2 months now. Every truth started to come out from each and everyone. Though I might shared the same kind of understanding with some colleagues but for me, I will stay in both side. Not to say that I play nice or to stay safe, but for me, each and everyone has their own role to play in the office. This is the way to make it a complete organization to run smoothly. Imagine if everyone play the same role in the office, how can this organization sustain?

Love:
Staying in a relationship with Mr.S is something that makes me feel complete. Why am I saying so is because we both share the same ideal of romance. I am a dreamer and I love to fantasize my romance to feel like we are in a fairy tale island. He compensates my dreams and he plays his part of role to make the story complete. He is my prince charming. I know this sounds like an impossible love story. But to me, this is just the beginning of something that I wanted to explore more and make it a complete chapters of our own stories. The ending has yet to come for each story, but what I am hoping is that our love story will come to the never ending part that will continues infinitely. I know I might be too idealistic, but in this world, nothing is impossible. If it really wants to come to an end, I hope I will close it beautifully that everyone can inspired by. I do not know the future, I do not know what and how this story of us will go, but all I know now that I appreciate every moment that I can cherished even though it might just be a one short sentence of sms. Here I would like to take this opportunity to say thank you again, because you complete my other half that I thought I had lost.

Life:
Getting deeper into a relationship is suppose to be getting along well and going smoothly. Yet, some still feel the burden of pain and happiness on the same time which is nothing to be called smoothly in a relationship. This is the beauty of life, imagine the relationship only heading to one direction and never change to the peak of happiness or the bottom of sadness, the relationship is in monotonous, what is the point of it then? If you never tasted agony or sadness, how would you know there will be happiness. Monotonous relationship will be a shallow relationship that have little depth of understanding. Well, of course I do not wish to have a very drastic change of peak and bottom, which I already experienced in this relationship within just three weeks. Just because I had experienced it, I realized more that each and everyday I had spend with Mr.S is something that I have to cherish and let the spontaneity of life takes its role to help me complete each day of chapters in my stories.

(In my fav spot, STARBUCK in SS2 thinking of someone special.)

(Time spend while Mr.S not around, TGIF in Pavillion with my fav cousin and my beautiful niece.)

(A wood media with charcoal, graphite and color pencil drawing.)

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Women

An archetype saying of a woman is that they are complicated and sophisticated. I have to agree upon that statement. Why am I saying so is because, from all the conversations with one of my closest friend,(aka my cousin) I have a slight understanding about woman more. Though I am one of them, but I never realized the truth when I discovered myself because I will always have a biased side upon myself. The more I explore on this particular topic, I realized that women always tend to think of a more complicated version on the outcome. This outcome normally is based on their emotion at that particular moment. For example, while I am in a happy mood, no matter what happen everything will be in a better form. But if I am in bad mood, everything will be like the end of the world. Is woman intuition always correct?

Job:
My work finally had become a less demanding workload. I am currently happy of where I am now, but not sure where the future outcome will bring me to. Everyone in the company seems to be very nice and I even went out jamming with them during weekend. But I'm not sure whether everyone appreciate what I am doing now. Some colleague might think I am a flirty and some may think that I am too loud and making commotion. No matter what, I am who I am and I will not let my women intuition of guessing game interrupting me.

Love:
This week is definitely a bitter sweet week. I had the best time with Mr.S on Friday and the worst time with Mr.S on Saturday. Friday we went out to the most perfect dinner and glad that he still appreciate the meaty session even though normally at that hours he only eat vegetables. We had the moment of sharing and lust of love after we both had something to drink. Well, as what he likes to put it as Satan's gift. The moment to me definitely will be unforgettable. We even almost hit another car (just between me and you at this point -.< *wink). However, just within the 24 hours the feeling of ups and downs can be so dramatic. Saturday is my convocation and I do enjoyed every moment shared with my friends and family. But during the night time, we had a slight misunderstanding. Mr.S forgot to bring down his mobile phone and he did not pick up my phone calls after the hour where we supposed to meet. I know I am in the wrong here of judging Mr.S that he might be doing something that is unfaithful, please accept my apologizes in that. I really do not want it to happen in that way. But the thing that I am not sorry to confront is the matter of another promises that you made with another girl. If you are reading this, I still do not understand why this question of "sleeping with other women" comes from? I still do not understand why this question pops up suddenly? I still do not understand why there is this question coming in between our conversation? When and how it happens? Though we had an agreement of making it works, but you still said that I am childish. This is not a small matter, even to the AMERICAN culture of a so-called more open minded. To you it seems irrational , but please do put it in another way if you are me. I am a human being after all that my feeling do count. Yes, I do believe that it will not happen, and I do believe that when you said that it is just sleeping and do nothing, but I do not believe that you still have the BRUTALLY HONESTY that you do not count in my feeling. I do hope that there aren't anymore stupid promises that you had made with other girls and I do hope that there aren't anymore promises that you are going to make that literally might hurt me in anyway. You went out with another woman for a drink I really do not mind and I had told you so many times that it is nothing to do with the drinking session. It is the "sleeping" issue that I am concern. Somehow I think that you breach the idea of my security upon you. Please do tell me, if I said now that I need to withdrawn some of my trust in you is it a fair count? I really like you and I said I will do anything to keep this the best that we can have. I am willing to say something that I might not agreed upon which is that I am willing to forget all and to remain of what we had before. To some, I might be the stupidest and silliest woman that agreed upon this statement and forget about it. After all, I said I really like you and I do. So, I am willing to do anything to make the best for both of us. I know there will be more to come that might upset me or you, but as I said before, please do not give up till we both think that we have no more energy left to sustain the relationship. It has only been 3 weeks, and so far we had the best and the worst at this point. I know there will be more to come and I am willing to stay on as long as you stand by me. My woman intuition here helps me to stay silly at one point and it helps me to strong in another way. I told you, I am strong, I am invisible and I am WOMAN, sophisticated and complicated woman.

Life: Being a woman is really hard, but yet I still love being a woman. Not because they have the advantages in many ways that some might said, but it is the sophistication and complication that makes it a mystery to us. Woman can be so strong at one point that even the strongest man cannot defeat upon by their power and might. Like Joan of Arc, Cleopatra, Marie Antoinette, Georgiana Cavendish, Marilyn Monroe and Jane Austin. Their emotional are so colorful but yet their will power are even stronger to suppressed their desire. Admirable and legendary. But bear in mind that they are still woman after all, that they are fragile and easily break.

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~MISSING~

Day by day and Night by night,
I miss you so much I loose my sight.

Stars above never leave the sky,
Just like my heart never leave your side,
For my day and night seems so long,
That I wish I am by your side.

How I wish that I am there with you,
to experience the moment all night through.

I MISS my dear Soo,
Whose name always in my mind,
For only my dear Soo,
Whose name be all mine.

Missing you became part of me,
Missing you is all I need,
I never know that missing someone,
Is a happiness that I need.
You are my dear Soo,
You are my one and only,
For as long as I live,
I will be missing you only.

As I wait for you patiently,
While you are above the highest peak,
Down below you see in me,
Will be waiting for you to come back to me.
Life is hard, without you around,
As the day and night seems so long.
Adieu, Adieu,
Is what I said before you go,
Parting is such sweet sorrow,
That I shall say good night till it be morrow.
Good night. Good night.

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