In love

This term is so new to me. I never felt this feeling before, though it may sound very cliche to others but to me, this is totally something that is so extraordinary. I always in search for my soul mate, someone who I can share and understand what I felt within. I went out with a couple of dates before, and I always ended up the relationship because I felt that we wasn't meant to be. In a relationship there are always some challenges that we need to go through and some obstacle that we need to solve. And to what degree that a relationship can be so called in love?

Job:
I started to meet and getting close with some of my colleagues. They are sure is a fun group to hang out with. First of all,let me introduced my colleagues:

Ah Hon: (sorry I forgot your full name), he is the surfer boy who loves the beach just like me.

Allen: the birthday boy, I wish you again HAPPY BIRTHDAY and MAY ALL YOUR WISHES COME TRUE. He is big but he has a bigger heart.

Choon Ming: the Malaysian guy who works in Singapore now. He is a very funny guy and we've been through the hardship together in one of his project.

Ethan: our senior guy whom his look does not match his age. :P

Faiz: our senior guy who always very slow in his responses and same as me, he will just laugh at everything and lighten up the stress environment.

Harry: his laugh can be contagious and he is a very straight forward guy who just say whatever he felt like saying it.

Justin: the know everything guy. He always helps me when it comes to IT problems.

Marcus: the guy who loves Shiraz's boy Omar and Hamza so much. Even copyright their photos and put it as his phone wallpaper.

Mun Wai: our senior who always help me in everything when it comes to work requirement.

Poon: my boss and ya he is my boss.

Shinaz: she is the sporty gal and very outgoing gal. She's fast in her pace, a total opposite of Faiz.

Shiraz: he is my fave because of his spontaneity and he we share the same value in lifestyle.

Wilson: he is really funny and always send me those cute emoticons through msn.

Yee Tee: he is the quiet one and shy. But love to tease me to speak more in Mandarin.

I love you guys so much, I hope that I get to stay after the probation ended which is very soon.


Love:
I love to write this part of the blog. Even though I am not an expert in telling a relationship, but I love to express what I feel. My sweetheart Mr.S and me, we confessed and declared our love through fb message and my blog. Well, you might say this is the 21st century declaration of love and confession. It somehow make it more convenient and fast to pass on the message of what we felt. Imagine if it took like a week to send out what we wanted to say, will it be too late? The idea of writing and anticipation is something good which it tests our ability in patience but for me, sometimes a message that had passed on to the opponent might be too late that some damage cannot be undone. Writing to each other had became our routine. How it started was we met in facebook once again after a long lost connection back in high school. We started with a few sentences and ended up with a long and meaningful message. Imagine, we already had a 101 messages in just one subject which started with an introduction. What I can say here is that, Mr.S really complete my life and to him only that I will say this that I am really in love. To what degree of the love can be, I do not know. But for sure, it is something that I cannot imagine and goes beyond what I am capable of.

Life:
My life is so complete that I felt like I do not dare to ask for more in return. I just appreciate of what I have now and I hope it will sustain till the very end of my life. In love is just one part that help me to feel so complete, the others will be the appreciation of what I have now either job, family and friends. Thank you!

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Future

Things that are ahead of us are always some thing blurry and unpredictable. I am not the kind of person who plan very well and perhaps I do not know what is my future is going to be like. I live by the present and my spontaneity of my lifestyle always kicks in to fill the story of my life. Till when and where do I suppose to have a future plan for myself?

Job:
Working in In2 is something that I did not plan but seems to me that it is something that I like to be into right now. Comparing to most of my ex-classmates, a lot of them preferring to work in a smaller agency where the pressure is minimal. Though the jobs that have been given to me do not seems too exciting, but at least the environment cope pretty well for my adaptation. My colleague once asked me, what is my future plan working in In2. Frankly speaking I do not have any plans or goals working in In2 yet, but what I hope is to get to know more about the job tendency of how it works. From now on, maybe my future will be focusing on the 3 years plan of starting a own business. What will the business line be it has to depends on how deep I know from working experiences.

Love:
What can I say but only that I am truly in love. I do not know what I did to deserve this sweet surrender of relationship. Mr. S is my sweetheart that I can consider to be included into my life. My life of the future and my life of the forever. I know it may seems too early to predict, but for me to be with him is the only thing that I know very clearly. For once in my life time, I am assure of what I am into now and what I want for this relationship to go.

Another day, another week,
The absence of you makes me weak.
Patiently awaits is the virtue I gain.
For nothing is more important than to see you again.

Knowing you are busy all week,
Setting your priority that you seek.
For what I can do is to wait and see,
That all this is worth for you and me.

Glad to hear that I am part of your life,
For you to share this is a great divine.
You included me into your life of future,
For nothing is more than I assure,
than to be a part that fills in the line of your life.
Hoping that this risk you took,
Will eventually turn out to be better than it looks.
Our future might seems cloudy and unsure,
Wishing this will turn out to be ablaze.
You complete me.
My sweet surrender,
My Love.

Life:
Moving on with my life of what I currently have now is what I appreciate the most. It may seems nothing to be so great and grand, but to me it is enough to sustain my true happiness. What lies ahead of my future, will be what I had now as a seed and to nurture it into something that I wish to become. I will keep on moving on and see what this seed of mine can grow into in the future.

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Time

Spending time with Mr.S is always the best time that I ever had. For once, that I was speechless when he replied that I have been the one. However, things started to get more complicated when it comes to the choices that need to be made for the options of our future directions. Time is the only limitation that stop us from doing what we want. Choosing the direction of our future in career seems to be the most logical way to have a better outcome in the long run and as for relationship, it may hold to the ideal way that we wanted and it may not as well. When time come to be one of the issue in a relationship, what and how are we going to deal with it?

Job:
Juggling everything altogether for a person to handle is a big headache. Though this is what "work" is so called that we are the laborer to our job field requirement to fulfill what need to be done. I know I am not a good time management person, and I am trying my best to fulfill all the requirement within the time limitation. I should have to learn how to say "no" for once that I can't handle all at one time. I am a bit tired of this where some of them thought that I am lazy and slow. Doing all this at once though the due time given seems to be efficient enough to complete it, but however, things keep coming in between and all the things that come in between seems to be in the same dateline as well. So how am I going to juggle which one comes first?

Love:
For once in my life time I got to say that I had the best quality time spending with Mr.S. He is more than tolerance enough to spare his time with me even though he is one of the person in the world that have the least time to spare. I really appreciate what he had done and given to me because it is more than what he had expected to give for a person. Time may be one of our obstacle, but I will try my best to make sure we fully utilize what we had left and make our relationship the most colorful as it can be. I may not be the most romantic person, and I may not be the most ideal partner, but what I can say is, I will do my best to this relationship as much as I can. This is our song, though it may seems quite inadequate to resemble anything, but to me only this word is enough to explain all I want to say to you.

"You are Everything, and Everything is You"
by Marvin Gaye and Diana Ross

Oh darling
I want to be everything to you

Today I saw somebody
Who looked just like you
He walked like you do
I thought it was you
As he turned the corner
I called out your name
I felt so ashamed
When it wasn't you
Wasn't you

You are everything
And everything is you
Oh, you are everything
And everything is you
'Cause you are everything
And everything is you

How can I forget
When each face that I see
Brings back memories
Of being with you
I just can't go on
Living life as I do
Comparing each girl with you
Knowing they just won't do
They're not you

'Cause you are everything
And everything is you
Oh, you are everything
And everything is you
You are everything
And everything is you

Life:
Time is never enough for a person to fulfill everything that they wanted to do. That is why there is this thing call a "Wish List" and "Bucket List". It is the things that we need to do before we leave this world. I have not started anything yet because I think it is not so important anymore. The reason I am saying so is because, I enjoy every moment that is given to me and that is enough for me to fulfill my life time spending in this world. However, there is of course things that I wish to do, like becoming one of the most famous people in the world in the categories of art field, either in multimedia or even fine art. Though this is just a wish list, it may not come true unless I work for it. Effort do counts in and now I am fully utilizing the time for me to achieve my wish.

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